I have debated whether or not to talk about this, but I have decided to because I think raising awareness is the most important part of this topic. I'm sure if you are a regular reader you would have seen a few tweets that maybe made you think what was going on... about two months ago now I found a lump in my right breast. I honestly can't explain the fear that rushed through my body when I found it, as well as a huge feeling of guilt. I do check my boobs, but I must admit I don't do it half as much as I should... considering there is breast cancer in my distant family, so as you can imagine it made me feel very foolish. I was alone when I found the lump, and was actually getting ready to go out and do a spot of shopping. I noticed that my right breast looked a lot fuller, so I randomly decided to check.. and found the lump.
Finding a lump instantly puts everything into perspective, and makes you realise how important life is. I'm sure you all know I like my make-up, handbags and a few other things, but these things become completely irrelevant, and the only thing that matters is your health and your close family and friends. My doctor referred me for an emergency scan, as she was quite worried about the lump. I had to wait two weeks for the letter, and when it came the appointment was quite far away. I actually wanted to stay with the NHS, but shortly after I started having terrible dreams about my lump, as well as hot sweats throughout the night. I do suffer on and off with anxiety, and if you know me well then you will know how much of a worrier I really am. I got to the stage where I couldn't cope with work, uni and the stress of not knowing what was going on, so I decided to go private. After my initial chat and examination with my consultant he told me that he thought it was a tumour. A tumour!! I couldn't believe it, but luckily he told me it would be very unlikely at my age to be cancer. I decided to go for an ultra sound, which revealed my tumour... but also another mass of tissue. Being led on the bed and being told that there was more just made me feel physically sick. The doctor recommended that I have an immediate needle core biopsy.
I decided to go ahead with the needle core biopsy right there and then, and even though it was pretty scary I'm glad I went through with it. I don't think I was quite prepared for it, and my boob is still heavily bruised and sore... but its a very small price to pay in the grand scale of things. I have had my results back now, and I actually have three complex non cancerous tumours which might need to be operated on within the next few months. Most women only have one, but as I have three there is an increased chance of developing breast cancer, but as long as I'm more cautious everything should be fine. I really didn't know whether or not to talk about this on my blog, but I felt that I had to raise awareness. Even though breast cancer in young girls is uncommon its still very possible, and finding a lump in your breast/armpit early could be a life saver. I feel I was quite naive and never thought it would happen to me, but finding a lump has put a whole lot of things into perspective. The past two months have been like hell, and I have been plauged daily with worry, and this is something I would hate someone else to go through. I have been lucky to have fantastic support, so If you have any questions about seeing your doctor, needle core biopsies or anything else related to breast lumps make sure you message me. I'm by no means an expert, but I feel that my experience could at least help someone and if not.. then at least raise some awareness. So get checking lovelies!
I got the job!!
Phew! now I have got that over and done with I can finally announce "I got the job" woohoo! - I work at an Elemis Spa situated within a beautiful five star resort. I love working there (even though spa life can get stressful) haha! - I applied for a "Digital Media Assistant Role" at the hotel, at the same time as everything was going on with my breast scare. I was very scared, but knew I had to give this a go even if I wasn't feeling in a good place. I managed to get myself together and get prepared for my interview, and to my complete and utter surprise I got the job! It seems surreal that I have my dream job waiting for me, and I'm so excited about working with all the fantastic events at the hotel. The girls at the marketing office are absolutely fantastic, and have already made me feel a part of their team. I feel this is really the start of a great future for me, but firstly I have to say thank you to some fantastic people who have helped me on my way! I really appreciate everyone who has supported me through this tough time, as well as the lovely people who have helped and supported me in getting this job (thanks to everyone who filled out my questionnaire too) I might have forgotten a few people, but I'm hugely thankful to anyone who has supported me and my blog :)
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Thank you to every single person who has supported me and my blog! - Leave your link down below, and I will add you to the list above :)
I hope you have enjoyed this post lovelies.. it's a lot more personal than I tend to post, but its good to have a chit chat now and then! I just wanted to get a few things off my chest, and I feel like now I can get back into my blogging routine. I have plenty of beauty related things to post about ;) and you can always check out my Instagram and Twitter for regular updates.
Lots of love!
PS - Thank You to everyone who wished me a happy 22nd Birthday on the 1st May! x